January 3: i just got confused

This day was a busy one.

I had to wash the whole pot in the house because my mum uses charcoal and stove to cook and kid bro doesn't wash them well.

I also had to wash the stoves to keep them insane.

And lastly I washed the whole buckets in the house and drum used for reserving water.
Momma needs all the help she can get so she doesn't get weak.

And lastly I went to visit chibuike..

I have known chibuike for 8 years now..funny enough,he was the first guy to kiss me,we were cool and best of friends till I got admission and life happened.
Fast forward to 3January, I had to go visits coz he came to my house the day before.

Going to his house, being with him, and his family I was calm and happy.I felt loved and we had long conversations.
I saw a flame that died coming up,now he asked me a question " ARE WE BACK" but jeez,I dunno if we are back..

I know I liked his company but I dunno how long meanwhile I still have a whole load asking same and those I am also seeking same from.

Though I said in 2020 I would focus on those who love me and cherish me ,that has not changed.

Back to chibuike,hmm we kissed oo,jeez my first kiss for the year and it was so refreshing.his mum and sister were in the room and it was like hell let loose.

I got emotional when he told me he had not kiss any other lady since our last kiss..jeez I felt so bad and  evil..but well life happens.

He hasn't had strong relationship since us but I have had 2
Though I have been single since December 2017.
The lord has been faithful.

I spent my whole evening at his place and didn't even visits the other family my dad asked me to visit by 8:30,I found my self home.

He called to know if I was safe.

Yes oo,before I forget,my answer to the question was let us give it time..

Because my head was messed.

Day three in January and I think I was happy someone reminded him how I have grown so fast in 8 years